Not again

Farking bad lucks surround me recently.
After my beloved car is serviced and being prepared to drive it out to work,
here comes another incident which happen right infront my house.
See what happened.

1st day to work

First day to work, FUCKING unlucky.
Yay, caught in the middle of traffic sardines for 1 hour n at last car broke down due to high water temperature coz of fan failure.

Enjoy these pics~


See those muthafucker cars in the traffic!!!





Yay,thx to the tow truck~ @#*&%$#@*




Welcome on board.




Thx for side parking my car so nicely.














At last.....













WTF???WASSUP WIF THE "GOOD" SIGN???

=D

Bros Night

Bro

Haih bro...take it or leave it.
Love is a fucking complicated thing.
We want it to be a 2 way thingy.
Efforts are thrown, but then get nth..
The most worst fucking thing is they take it for granted.
Take this as a last chance.
If she is willing to take a step backwards for you, then take it, continue with it.
If things still goes fucking stubborn n selfish, just end it.
Selfishness can't ever be tolerated in a relationship.
Things work out in 2 ways, not in single way.
Even if you can rescue it today, tmr will be the same.
Fucking shits will keep on repeat until she gets matured.
Yeah, don't be childish, we just want it to last.
Don't just fuckin implement your childishness n selfishness in the relationship.
It'll just burst out.
Girls, be mature.
You are goin to blow it like this and just regret in the future.
It means nth.
So, if you continue to be immature, just fark off and leave us alone.
We won't die without you.
It is just that we care.

Friends are forever, girls are as long as you are together.

Physco

Drink drank drunk, drink drank drunk, drink drank drunk.
So sorry to say that I've not drunk b4.
My life, I'm so fucking fed up of it.
I dun giv a fucking damn.
I'll change it.
I'll change my life.
Fuck off shits.
I'll change myself to accept those which I don't accept.
I'll show a total different of me.
Things are there, it just depends on whether you wanna grab it.
Changes are there, it just depends on whether you wanna change it.
When the situation forces you to, you have no other choices but to go for it.
Change change change, if I can, I rather not.
Fark...I'm a physco.

Gud Morning

Good morning, say hello to the sun rise.

Can't Sleep

Abnormal life strucks again.
I am still damn awake at this time, full of energy, can't sleep.
Wtf is wrong with me?
Damn hungry..anyone available now for breakfast with me?
Haih...do I need to be that pathetic, using liquor to make me fall sleep?
What will appear in your mind when you are lying on your bed, when you can't fall asleep?
Who will you think of, when you are so damn lonely at home, with nth to do?

Hehe

The most happiness thing on earth is you are able to sleep until anytime, sleep till only you are willing to wake up to face the new day.
I like the feeling of this, makes me feel that "wow, I'm so free!".
Hehe.

14th of June

Today, 14th of June, is a very memorable day for me.
Today, I welcome this memorable date with liquor.
14th of June 2003.
The starting point of all my valuable and memorable experiences.
The starting date which lets me know what is love, and to be loved.
I appreciate it, and I heart it alot.
Sincerely, all the best, with my heart.

Quite excited

Wow, yeah yeah, just received my first ever interview offer from an overseas company which is located in Hong Kong and also in Singapore.
If recruited, most probably will be working in either HK or Singapore.
But then,
I believe it is damn hard to be recruited since this is quite a big company and also, there must be alot of applicants and only 3 vacancies are available for this post.
Lol, so I have no confidence on myself, just take it as a try, an extra experience in interviewing.
Anyway, it's good it's good.
Today when I wake up, I already have this though in my mind "hm, how good is it if I can work overseas, leaving this country, start a brand new life, a whole new world, something fresh, a totally new environment."
So, from now on, I will add oil to send applications for overseas jobs.

drunk

I am drunk, I love to get drunk, because it enchanced my courage, for me to face the truth of myself, for me to know what I like, who I love.

Kacang post

No more studies, really so damn bored.
Very very luckily, doughnut baby is staying at my home since the day I finished my exams, so I have a companion which fills my time with warmth and love, lolx.



And so luckily, I need to edit my thesis and submit it on the next Monday. So my time will be filled.
Although I don't really fucking give a damn about it, but since I am really so free, then I don't mind doing all these shits.
And I will be going to Langkawi on next Tuesday, good good.
Today I just booked an extra air ticket for a friend for next Tuesday’s flight to Langkawi and guess what, the price for the thru and fro tickets are just RM218 in total.
I though it would exceed rm400 though.
So, anyone wanna join?
Thx Airasia.
And...
Wtf I din receive any appointments for job interviews, I’ve applied quite a number of jobs already.

Erm

Wow, someone’s celebrating their 5 years anniversary.
Congratulations I would say. 
It is definitely not easy to maintain a relationship for that long.
Many couples could not make it.
Facing a same person for years, in a young age, in a tempting world, is not easy.
For teenagers, it is hard to resist the fresh new world out there, lotsa different things, lotsa funs.
I’m not, bcoz I see myself as a young adult, not a teenager anymore, lol.
Is it good to think and act maturely at this age?
Might be good, might be not.
When a mature dude falls in love with an immature girl, what do you get?
A tragic ending.
Time flies, 8 months has past.
Unbelievable, it is just like yesterday.
Still dwelling on the past maybe?
But now, things weren’t the same.
Nothing comes out right.
Be it.
The sky will turn bright, because the sun will still rise.
Wait for the dawn.

Nth special

Wow, life is like a movie, so dramatic yet unexpectedly.
No more lectures, no more exams, no more chicks scouting in the canteen.
Lol.
Been waiting for this stage since very long time ago.
But then I feel emptiness now, maybe is coz I am too free?
College life is over, one more viva session and the whole degree course will be called to an end.
And of course, I won’t fucking attend the stupid demo on 10th of July.
Why would I wanna attend a demo which is not stated in my final year project schedule sheet, and somemore give those external examiners the chance to critique on my project and therefore lose my marks.
It’s time to get my ass up and find a job.
Life’s not easy nowadays, money is never enough.
Some more the stupid fuel price will cause everything to increase.
Money is getting smaller, my pocket $ is not enough for me to spend.
Most importantly, I’m ashamed to take pocket $ from my dad at this stage.
But then, fuck.
Click the magic “Apply” button in Jobstreet, you’ll find that you are just a small prawn looking for job.
Heck, there are 500 to 600 applicants who applied to a job which has only 1 or 2 vacancies wtf.
God bless I’ll get a job soon.
God bless I can survive with the mere salary, with the hefty fuel price.

Abnormal

Damn it, my life style has gone upside down. I went to bed when the sun is going to rise, and wake up when the sun is going to set. This abnormal lifestyle needs to stop dy. I’m more likely a Dracula now. Some more there are too many alcohols in my body. Were having alcohols few times in a week and this has been continuous for months. Holy shit. I just came back from friend’s house, with a full stomach of beers (damn long time din drink beers, most of the time are whisky and brandy). Now I’m so awake, can’t fall asleep. The most abnormal thing is, I have the passion to study! Right now! Weirdo. But I know I gotta sleep. Have to adjust my sleeping time back to normal. Exams are very very near dy, I’ll die if I continue like this. God bless.

感触

突然间，很有感触。突然觉得你，没有一个知心朋友。围绕在你周围的，都是因为要追求你，而对你好。所以我觉得，也知道，就只有爱情才能填满你的空间。你，离乡背井一个人在生活。我知道，你是非常需要一个可靠的人来照顾你，听你倾诉，疼你。所以以前的我曾经告诉自己，要给你最好的，你所没有的，来填补你。要让你觉得，你是最幸福的。所以我很照顾你，很关心你。我知道你本性很好，很天真。对别人太好。容易让人误会，也经常让人占便宜。不知为何，隔了这么久，我还是那么地想关心你，要疼你。说真的，我已渐渐的看开了，放开了。我现在，可有可无。所以你也是，少少的不如意，就不要放在心上。不要那么容易对生活灰心。你所做的一切，不就是为了要过自己想要的生活，做自己喜欢的事。真的，希望你开心。真的，要幸福。真的，还有我。就算是朋友也一样。

Bastard

There is this bastard who pissed me off.
My hatred for this fella accumulated from time to time, throughout the years.
Well, the latest incident that this fella pissed me off happened few days ago.
I was to forget about it but damn, when I look at my car n talked about it to my frens just now, the anger arise again n I decided to fuck him here.
Well, few days ago we were going for football in our college.
When I was about to park my car into a parking bay, this fella suddenly stand in the middle of the bay and tend to play with me, he kicked my car front bumper!
Well, so childish. He thought it is funny.
Then I ram my car engine sound loud to him.
Then he though I was playing with him, he wave his both hands, showing me the hand sign "come, come" and he yelled to me: “come, come and bang me!”
Alright then, so I ram my car engine sound again, this time I release some clutch, the car move forward a bit to him.
Then this mother fucker bastard JUMP UP TOWARDS AND STAND on my car bonnet!!!
Read carefully!
Is JUMP UP TOWARDS AND STAND on my car bonnet!
WTF!!!
He is at least 70+ kg!!!
I heard a loud "THUD!" landing sound.
Shit.
I get pissed off straight away.
I opened the door scolded him for doing this stupid thing to my car.
After that I forgot the whole incident.
I drove back to my house, then suddenly I suspected some weird sound coming from my car bonnet.
When I checked on it, I saw that my bonnet which that sohai jumped on “kempit” already!
Fuck.
I was so angry.
I called him straight away.
Our conversation is as below:

Me: “Hey, just now you jumped on my bonnet and now it kempit dy.”
Him: “Huh, none of my business. You wanna hit me with your car first.”
Me: “WTF? You blocked me parking and play a fucking game with me, now you say you have nothing to do with it?”
Him: “Tiu, you wanna ram on me sure I wanna avoid la, so I jumped on your car bonnet.”
Me: “WTF, my car just slightly moved forward abit. Somemore if you really wanna avoid wouldn’t you just JUMP ASIDE instead of JUMPING ON my car???”
Him: “That time too sudden, I just know jump on your car.”
Me: “Alright then, I have nothing to talk to you dy.”
Conversation end.

You ass hole.
First of all you are the one who wanna play this childish thing.
Now you wrecked people’s thing then you throw away all the responsibility?
Second, even IF you are right, would you APOLOGIZE for causing the damage?
The most DULAN thing is.
The next day, that fucker acted nothing happened while I don’t even wanna talk to him the whole day.
Instead, he still has the thick face to sit on my car for lunch!
Applause to you.
You have the thickest face on earth.
This is just one of the hundreds incidents that you pissed me off.
Beware when I lose my patience on you.

Left Out

Hey, what’s happening???
I got two bros include me three person in my buddies gang who are single while others are not.
But God Damn It suddenly two of you get laid at the same time!!!
WTF WTF WTF!!!
So now left me alone la…
Next time all you guys go out in couple I think I no need join lo...
I stay at home lo…
Haih… 
Don’t tell me “Since all of us have gfs, u should get 1 too to match the group.”!!!
I’m so not into it now.

Categorize

Some people often categorize themselves to a particular area which they initially don’t belong to.
This started when they are curious or interested in something they are new to.
Why do I say like this?
Simple.
When one is interested or curious about something, they will normally read, watch about it, or mix with people who are in that category.
Well, this stupid action usually misleads them by influencing their heart and mind by focusing all their attention in that particular area.
And thus, they unconsciously created a role for themselves in that particular category.
From that moment onwards, they are mind trapped.
They felt that they belong to this particular category while actually not, this is the result of the influence.
Well, this is based on no facts.
It is just purely my thoughts.

Whiners

Some people always whine.
Whine non-stop.
Whining about the inequality treatment in their relationship, or the unfairness which caused the failure of their past relationship.
But, did you do the same thing to someone before?
Some people say, I am looking for the best person who cares and love me a lot.
Yea, the person do exists.
But he/she is not your cup of tea.
So, sorry.
Lolx, if then, why bother to look for the best person who cares and loves you a lot since you are so choosy.
Go get a person whom can sweet talk you, or shower you with gifts, or takes you to whatever places you like/never been to, or whatever that is done purposely and then go get a good fall of it in the near future and seek another one again and repeat the God damn cycle again and again.
People who are good at making you happy doesn’t mean that they really suit you.
It probably just proves that they are good players.
Did you ever tried looking at yourself in front of a mirror and see yourself from an outsider’s angle?
Who do you saw?
The perfect you in your mind?
Or the jerks/bitches that you hate?
Btw, this post does not refer to any specific person.
I just write as these thoughts appear in my mind suddenly.
And yea, this post is so biased.

Better In Time

This is the song which I’m damn in love with recently.
It takes over the place of “Bleeding Love” which I liked very much previously.
Maybe it’s the situation that makes me change my preference.
It’s the lyrics maybe…
Previously it’s “Bleeding Love”, now it’s “Better In Time”.
Lol, which means that after you had finished bleeding your love, you will have to get better in time.
Hopefully it won't be "Bitter In Time".
Hahaha, fuck love life.

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Leona Lewis

Better In Time

It’s been the longest winter without you
I didn’t know where to turn to
See somehow I can’t forget you
After all that we've been through

Go in, come in
Thought I heard a knock
Who’s there? No one
Thinking that I deserved it
Now I realize that I really didn’t know
You didn’t notice, you mean everything
Quickly I’m learning, to love again
All I know is, Imma be ok

Thought I couldn’t live without you
Its gonna hurt when it heals to
It’ll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I’m gonna smile cause I deserve to
It’ll all get better in time

How could I turn on the tv
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I’m dreaming
Don’t wanna let, hurt my feelings 

But that’s the path, I believe in
And I know that, time will heal it
You didn’t notice, you mean everything
Quickly I’m learning, to love again
All I know is, Imma be ok

Thought I couldn’t live without you
Its gonna hurt when it heals to
It’ll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I’m gonna smile cause Ideserve to
It’ll all get better in time

Since there’s no more you and me
Its time I let you go so I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

Thought I couldn’t live without you
Its gonna hurt when it heals to
It’ll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I’m gonna smile cause I deserve to
It’ll all get better in time

(chorus till fade)

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Actually I wanna upload the song together in this post but I don’t know the way to.
Lol, still a noob ass in blogging.

Genting

Went to genting theme park yesterday..
Finally, after weeks of planning but still can’t manage to go..
Due to those happening programs every weekend which caused me can’t wake up in the next morning..lol..
Well, the same thing happens to me yesterday as well..
Set the alarm to 9am..but end up waking at 11:30 wtf..!
Thx to the previous night again..which we drank until 6am…
So, back to the genting part!
Due to bla bla things, we reached genting on 3pm.
Wow, it was a sunny day when we were going uphill.
But as we walked out from the car park..
God damn it..it’s raining wtf!!!
But then, we also managed to go in the theme park and enjoy ourselves there.
Due to the stupid weather, we din managed to play a lot of rides…
Luckily we are good at “syok sendiri”, damn enjoy playing among ourselves~
Wow, it's been a long time ago since i took so many photos..
Conclusion is…it’s still an enjoyable and a memorable trip..
Really enjoy it.
Hm…
Maybe it is not the place that matters,
It’s the person whom you go with that matters.

Nice guys

Found this article somewhere in the internet,
which I feel is great to share with those good guys out there, as well as those ungrateful girls.

Of course, first of all I have to claim that this article is originally copied from the internet and not written by me.

We often heard those girls out there keep asking: where are all the nice guys?
Well, this article answers that question.

Here it goes:

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What happened to all the nice guys?
The answer is simple: you did.

See, if you think back, really hard, you might vaguely remember a Platonic guy pal who always seemed to want to spend time with you. He'd tag along with you when you went shopping, stop by your place for a movie when you were lonely but didn't feel like going out, or even sit there and hold you while you sobbed and told him about how horribly the (other) guy that you were fucking treated you.

At the time, you probably joked with your girlfriends about how he was a little puppy dog, always following you around, trying to do things to get you to pay attention to him. They probably teased you because they thought he had a crush on you. Given that his behavior was, admittedly, a little pathetic, you vehemently denied having any romantic feelings for him, and buttressed your position by claiming that you were "just friends." Besides, he totally wasn't your type. I mean, he was a little too short, or too bald, or too fat, or too poor, or didn't know how to dress himself, or basically be or do any of the things that your tall, good-looking, fit, rich, stylish boyfriend at the time pulled off with such ease.

Eventually, your Platonic buddy drifted away, as your relationship with the boyfriend got more serious and spending time with this other guy was, admittedly, a little weird, if you weren’t dating him. More time passed, and the boyfriend eventually cheated on you, or became boring, or you realized that the things that attracted you to him weren't the kinds of things that make for a good, long-term relationship.

So, now, you're single again, and after having tried the bar scene for several months having only encountered players and douche bags, you wonder, "What happened to all the nice guys?"

Well, once again, you did.

You ignored the nice guy. You used him for emotional intimacy without reciprocating, in kind, with physical intimacy. You laughed at his consideration and resented his devotion. You valued the aloof boyfriend more than the attentive "just-a-" friend. Eventually, he took the hint and moved on with his life. He probably came to realize, one day, that women aren't really attracted to guys who hold doors open; or make dinners just because; or buy you a Christmas gift that you mentioned, in passing, that you really wanted five months ago; or listen when you're upset; or hold you when you cry. He came to realize that, if he wanted a woman like you, he'd have to act more like the boyfriend that you had. He probably cleaned up his look, started making some money, and generally acted like more of an asshole than he ever wanted to be.

Fact is, now, he's probably getting laid, and in a way, your ultimate rejection of him is to thank for that. And I'm sorry that it took the complete absence of "nice guys" in your life for you to realize that you missed them and wanted them. Most women will only have a handful of nice guys stumble into their lives, if that.

So, if you're looking for a nice guy, here's what you do:

1.) Build a time machine.
2.) Go back a few years and pull your head out of your ass.
3.) Take a look at what's right in front of you and grab a hold of it.

I suppose the other possibility is that you STILL don't really want a nice guy, but you feel the social pressure to at least appear to have matured beyond your infantile taste in men. In which case, you might be in luck, because the nice guy you claim to want has, in reality, shed his nice guy mantle and is out there looking to unleash his cynicism and resentment onto someone just like you.

If you were five years younger.

So, please: either stop misrepresenting what you want, or own up to the fact that you've fucked yourself over. You're getting older, after all. It's time to excise the bullshit and deal with reality. You didn't want a nice guy then, and he certainly doesn't fucking want you, now.

Sincerely,

A Recovering Nice Guy

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The end of the article.

Done

It’s done.
No more daily goodnight messages.
No more daily e-mails.
No more daily calls.
I’ll just receive.
If there’s none, be it.
Hate walking in this one way street.
I clearly know what’s happening around for these period. 
Feelings got numb dy.
I'm exhausted.
Be it what it should be.
Go on with the life that you wished to be.
I quit.
You need not hide anything anymore.
You are free.
It is me, who set u free.




Penguin love, it’s not easy.
It's about 2 person who loves only each other forever and ever.
You hope someone to love you forever, like a penguin.
But they most probably won’t.
Why?
Because when this thought appears in your mind,
it already happened that you love more than your partner does.
The person who loves more in a relationship,
is always the loser.
I don't see fairness in relationships.
There's no penguin love in this world.
Except for penguins.

Courage and Strength

It takes strength to be firm.
It takes courage to be gentle.

It takes strength to stand guard.
It takes courage to let down your guard.

It takes strength to conquer
It takes courage to surrender.

It takes strength to be certain.
It takes courage to have doubt.

It takes strength to fit in.
It takes courage to stand out.

It takes strength to feel somebody's pain.
It takes courage to feel your own pain.

It takes strength to hide feelings.
It takes courage to show them.

It takes strength to stand alone.
It takes courage to lean on another.

It takes strength to love.
It takes courage to be loved.

It takes strength to survive.
It takes courage to live.

It takes strength to hold on.
It takes courage to let go.

-Plagiarized-

Night talk

Watched back those photos that we took during our last year’s Singapore trip.
It was really soooo memorable!
Those are the happy moments where we have nothing to worry about (except for no enough time for us to play throughout the entire island).
Wow, standing in the current situation of mine, while looking back at those photos..
Really really can’t imagine that those happy moments do exist before.
Those days were really….enjoying + loving..!
Just the 2 of us went down to the island by coach, and of course with few hundred sing dollars and the most important thing on hand  the island’s MRT route map.
Haha, with that map, we went throughout the entire island..
It’s just like a backpacking journey..tiring yet memorable.
Yeah, just the 2 of us.
With loads of photos taken of course..
After walking for the whole day, night time still wanna walk to the opposite street to buy loads of mangosteens + rambutans back into the hotel for fruit fest.
Lolx, wtf is happening to me.
Thinking of those happy memories in the middle of the night.
Well, those are memories.
It is better to look forward and create more memories.
Damn..it’s 4am dy..
Gotta sleep dy..
Tmr 9am class wtf!!!
Goodnight.

Doughnut

Can't stand dy..
I really have to post up the cute photos of little Doughnut!
He's so damn cute and adorable..
Although he's not mine, he belongs to her..
But then, i'm so damn in love with cute Doughnut..

Here's the pics of him..




See, he is posing for the cam..




Innocent look is his best weapon..









Hahaha, cute little Doughnut with his teddy bear's fur

A normal post

Finally, a post about my daily life..
Not about love that sucks..
Alright, here it goes.
Wtf..
Life has been so damn busy for me.
After the thesis thingy, I’ve been busy hanging out almost everyday.
Not only that, I’ve became a hardcore drinker some more!
3 midnight drinking sessions in 8 days..
7 bottles in 3 sessions..
It’s all about whisky, whisky and vsop…
Lolx..
My liver…
But then, life like this is damn enjoying..
Shit things will temporarily disappear from my mind.
Poor mom, my house is like a hotel to me.
Back home sleep, wake up leave, back home sleep again.
(note: back home is dawn)
Haihx, gotta stop this living style dy..
I’m gonna die..
Wallet’s shrinking..i overspent!!!
I’m spending my next month’s expenses!
Shit shit shit…
Well, really hafta stop hanging out always.
Gotta pay attention in my studies.
Finals coming..
1 more month left..
Well, hope everything’s fine in these few months

爱

这一辈子里，我只爱过两个人。
第一位，是爱我的你。
第二位，是不爱我的你。

时间

在爱情里，许多人的遗憾是，
在错的时间遇见对的人。
是借口，还是真正的遗憾？
那，如果对的人，
愿意呆在流动的时间内，
等待那对的时间呢？

Couple

What’s the definition of a couple?
A pair of lovers?
It should be.
Then, what makes a couple?
A pair of people who loves each other?
A pair of people who relies on each other?
Or 2 people who needs each other.
Or it is just 2 people who are just purely getting together for nothing.
For fun? For materials? For just don’t wanna be lonely?
For responsibility?
Sympathy? Needs?
Or I need you as a spare?
Or purely lust?
So, what does couple do?
It’s not just about sex. Some couples don’t even have sex before.
Well, they care for each other?
Misses each other every moment?
Loves each other very much?
Share every happiness, sadness?
Wanna spend most of their time with their partner?
Hope to see their partner every time every moment?
Wish that their partner will just love him/her for the rest of their lives?
Wish that their partner will be loyal to them?
Well that’s just a wish, it would never really be.
It’s nearly impossible for a person to love just one people in his/her lifetime.
If there’s really such a person, the opposite partner definitely won’t be.
Why?
Because human won’t appreciate the best things in their lives.
The stupid mistake that human always repeat is taking for granted.
They won’t appreciate what they have.
But instead, they are desperate for what they do not have.
Once the best left, they regret.
Pathetically,
There are much more sadness than happiness in love life.
A person who loves with all their heart often gets their heart break.
While a person who does not really love often breaks people’s heart.
Who says life would be perfect with love?
I say everyone would be happy if there’s no love in this world.
Hearts wouldn’t break, tears wouldn’t roll.
Lies wouldn’t be created and sorrows wouldn’t grow.
Lastly, fuck those people who are selfish in relationships.
Selfishness tears down the confidence of human in love.
If it doesn’t, sorry.
It tears down mine.

心

总是以为,雨过就会天晴,太阳下山了,总会有日出的时候。
挨了五个月。这五个月之中，真是度日如年。
你害怕过夜晚吗？当天色变黑，世界开始宁静下来，自己一个人在房里，除了自己，就是回忆，思念。
想入睡？当你睡不着时，思念加倍。
睡着了，想起身？
不想，因为现是真的太残酷了，不想面对。
吃饭？虽然俄，但是没胃口。
出去玩吧，勉强让自己忘了不开心，但回家后，更加感觉到孤独。
这种生活，实在是太烂了。
怎么办？
让时间慢慢冲淡一切把，但是，冲来冲去总是冲不淡。
那么，去找另一个吧。
试了，就是不喜欢，没感觉。反而，越来越想念她。
这样，那就做她背后的守护使吧。
傻，还是伟大？
这都不重要，自己开心就好了。
那就，每天期待因她而响起的电话吧。
所以，电话是最重要的。
每天都要满电。
以防她有要事需要你帮忙。
这些日子，苦中偶尔带来些甜。
甜是因为偶尔电话真的还会因她而响起。
她还会想起我啊？
每一天的生活，就是期待电话的响起。
直到有一天，
很奇怪的，意想不到，她，突然牵了我的手就走。
从前不以为意的小动作，竟然成为现在最大的惊讶，开心，，感动。
手掌毫无力气的由她握住，然后再紧紧地握回她，细细的品尝手握手的感觉。
这么一牵，两人就仿佛再度复合。
很开心，以为终于雨过天晴。
长久的盼望和等待，终于让我等到了这一天。
心想，从此，要好好地珍惜她。
刚开始，不敢有所表达，不敢触碰敏感的话题。
因为知道，她，还忘不了。
不敢触碰她的痛处，想尽办法让她忘了，然后开开心心的生活。
但是，每当想尽办法想让她开心，都会因为她的电话响，讯息响，不同的搭讪，不同的追求而破坏了自己的心情。
想问，在这种心情之下，能够开怀，开心的的相处吗？
已经尽量压抑了，已经尽量假装不知道了，已经尽量不介意了。
反而非常尊重的，不去问，不去看。 
好了，现在，感觉真的很不对劲了。
不必多说。
就顺其自然吧。
我，还能怎样？
我，还能做什么？
真的体会到了，原来，非常地爱一个人，她不一定会像你那样爱回你。
原来付出，是未必会得到回报的。
原来真爱，是会消失的。
原来爱，是不由得我们控制的。
我的要求很简单。只要爱我，就行了。
我只是想，被自己很爱的人，爱自己。就行了。
我只是想你，永远坐在我身边，牵着我，只看我，听我的。
我很想，回到以前那样。
那非常爱我的你，仍然在我的脑海中滚动。
那常贴着我的你，仍在我回忆里徘徊。
你的“老天的眷顾”，让我感动不已。